Much of my personal struggle is with overthinking. My brain is constantly going and it frequently affects how I feel the present moment. I wrote this one day while I was on a walk with friends.
Because I’m having a day where things don’t necessarily feel alright. They feel heavy–hard to digest, and hard to decide how I feel once I do. I feel physically dissociated–socially more so, my body feels lethargic. It feels hard to engage with what’s happening in front of me. I’m living it but it’s not being felt. My mind is consumed with other things, more so my own personal spirals. When this happens I sometime forget the point, I don’t feel like I want out, but I don’t feel happy with what’s here, I don’t know how I feel. It’s a state of being so worked up mentally that I’m incapable of appreciating what’s unfolding right before my eyes.
But then what’s the point? If I’m stuck in my own head I want out, no one should live there, living in your own head is an awful good waste of a life.
Overthinking is something I have dealt with for a long time. It has taken a lot of work to train my thoughts to be productive and non-destructive–I try to use them as an asset. Some days its not as easy, but heres to continually trying! That’s why I enjoy journaling and writing cause I get thoughts out. So today go journal or something!!!
XOXO
Karli